It’s weird. I got up this morning in a fine mood and have been productive all day. Today is the last day of Spring Break, and I did no work over break. Therefore, naturally, I have to pay the price and do it today. But, that really hasn’t been the problem. At least until now. Since about 5 o’clock I’ve done nothing but think about how badly I do not want to go back to school tomorrow. I really can’t decide why exactly though. I love my kids. I love my co-workers. I really like a good number of my administrators. My end of year assessment is only 25 days away, but my kids are more than on track to do well on it (I’m still pushing them to do better, I don’t think “well enough” is enough).
There are only 8 weeks left until the school year is over. I’m desperately telling myself that I got this, but I’m less than convinced. I just told my roommate that I have the burning sensation to just burst out in tears. I’m not sad feeling though. I think I just need inspiration. I’m burnt out. One week wasn’t enough.
Nonetheless, here is what I know: you’ve gotta fake it ’til you make it. My kids can’t know that I’m not sure how I’ll get through 8 weeks, let alone 20 more minutes in each period…….because they deserve more. They’ve had plenty of “good enough” to last a lifetime, so I’ve got to up my game and find some inspiration.